Doesn't It Make You Feel Better? (Depression State Part 1)

Depression State Part 1
By Robert Burford Jr.

Sitting here , 3:52 in the morning , I think back to a time when I was in love. In a manner of speaking it's only been once. Her name ? Shannon Zen Flower , which is strange as a Zen flower she percieved herself to be , but well I'll say more later. I've been a resident in the depression state since 2008 about a week after V.D. , a day in which you should be loving your wife everyday but if you haven't God forbid you forget Valentines , same for women. I'd recently moved from the Depression state to Destin E which is a off shoot of Hopesville. She told me , she dreamt of living in Woezme , Selfloathe , a bland awful place with bad tans and awful attitude.
At first glance she didn't look like the type to belong in Woezme. We'd been so Happy and one day I got ODD or the The One Decibel Disease , causing me to walk on physical egg shells. Needless to say with my inop , she found safe haven in Woezme. I hear from her seldom but when I do it's not her but a shell of what used to be. Really sad huh? Lying their on my made bed in the town of Zyloft , I think to my self of how I was saved during the Bermuda months.

The Explanation of The Bermuda Months

The Bermuda Months consist of December , January and February particularly because of Christmas , Midnite New Years and Valentines Day or the F You for Havin somebody Months.

December


January February

Why call it the Bermuda months? Well , the Bermuda Triangle is one of the world most mysterious phenomenons ( can't believe I spelled that rite without speel Chock , wait what?)
. Like the Bermuda Triangle , you can get lost in the Bermuda Months and never be found or hell even find what you're looking for. The seas of those three months are vicious without the love of family and friend. However , those relationships still don't fill the void of the Boyfriend Girlfriend love you seek. The void of Christmas Morning , the missed kiss of Midnite New Years and the not even candy gram of Valentines Day , which has the initials V.D. because you get burned so many times on that day , it pretty much sticks with you till your "Penicillin Love" cures you .
Once Stanley Opalie of Cresent Heights looked for love in the Bermuda Months. He gave the girl he liked a card for Christmas , Kristal for New Years and Four Dozen Roses For V.D. Lil known to him and not being apart of this Depression State yet , she told him "I'm Jewish" , shared the Champagne with the asshole ignoring her who poured it out no less which she found hilarious and hated flowers , but hey she raised morale with others around her , which is quite an Inside joke to Beansy. Stanley was lost in the Bermuda Month , we still haven't found the nice guy with in as it was dead on arrival when he crossed the state line.
I've been in the Depression state many times , and it gets old but sometimes you need to go there to build upon the knocked down blocks that spell L O and V with the E missing. I love gray so this place is perfect and it's weird cause most people here work at some job in the air force involving cops , go figure seeing as Govenor Kose turned Moralenia into a shit hole . Just because you're in the state doesn't mean you're abandoning your family and friends but you are just sad because of the situation at hand and friends feeding you thoughts is not something that helps your psyche.
Shannon
Coming back from Corpus Christi , I'm focused , not wanting a girlfriend , with myself and my friend Hugh Sped in agreement meant that it would be best for the new years. Sure nuff , God intervenes and 7 hours later I've one of the best nites of my life. Shannon made me feel alive again. Though whilst visiting family I felt at my best , she made me feel more you know? Like I could do anything. It was as if it was love at first sight , well at first you know? She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen before the transformation. Brown flowing hair , the shirt striped and her jeans perfect. She'd arrived late and we instantly hit it off after one Intro. Her smile breathtaking. Her pretty friend wanting to take a hit of the Marlboro 27 , though she like me infatuated by the voice of one another.
See , she like me , were not going to go , again Divine Intervention and I thank Sparrow for the push to go. We go to the Pool hall with friends and it's just as if we'd know each other for years though it was only five hours. All over each after every turn and a kiss on the cheek from me , it was on , the romance of course, I give two shits about sex seeing as I'm a professional at Asexual practices. Conversations from where are you from , to the meaning of DSL's (Drake Simpsons Lesbos to the naive and dull) and just pure attraction with a hint but not alot of lust. Both feeling confident in every syllable of what we say . Off to Arbor Mist it up. No , that's not a sex act near the foggy lake , it's the drink with a veggie snack to follow. They come later , and she comes to my room which of course is Immaculate as always (coughs "Bullshit!) who said that ? We Tell Sparrow and Hugh that we have to look for the controls to Guitar Hero which we were. Though we wanted some of the wow I'm really into this person alone time we all experience or some will experience later. During that time , I had the confidence not allow in the Depression State to kiss her which was really great. I remember where we stood and the random make out sessions that followed. I'll always remember that nite for the shear fact we kicked ass in Buzz the game and Guitar Hero and loved having each other around.
What followed were four glorious weeks of getting to know you late nite conversations
What followed was The Transformation of Shannon
What followed was My Ticket Back To The Depression State she saved me from buying was upgraded to first class at the end.
It was a rough last two weeks , two weeks in which I almost died in the Depression State.

Part Two : The Month of Happiness, The Transformation , and how I got back to Hopesville.
Coming Soon!

(c)2008